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Post by Warrior Kimmy on Jan 20, 2009 22:27:19 GMT -5
Hello!!! Well after all these years I finally got my very own internet!!! For those who do not know, it is Kimmy here who very shyly posted those "pretty" pictures on the Squalor Survivors site all those years ago of my house, before and after!!!! Still a little bit messy, but hey I do not mind cleaning now and I can actually move in my house!!!! I wanna say HI to everyone and I am so glad to see this site is still going on here as I would not be alive without it all those years ago!!! Honestly, in that mess they still would be looking for me even now!!!!  Love to you allllllll Kimmy xoxoxooxoxoxooxoxoxo |
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Post by AnnieOkie on Jan 20, 2009 22:30:59 GMT -5
Welcome home Kimmy! I was not a member at the old site, but have seen your name mentioned many times here. Glad you are with us! This place has saved my life.
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Post by Warrior Kimmy on Jan 20, 2009 22:37:27 GMT -5
Hi Annieokie, Yeah, this site is very important for the psychological well being of us all I think!!! I love your photo, ha ha, you look very clean and tidy in that outfit!!! Just like I used to look when I peeped out the curtains to make sure I could safely open the door and squeeze past the mess, then slam it shut as fast as I could!!!
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Post by lilith on Jan 20, 2009 23:27:48 GMT -5
Kimmy,
Long before I was able to post, I printed out your big thread and read it like my bible. I printed it out at work because I had no computer at home. It was the first time I felt like there was someone like me out there. I cried my heart for you and for me. It was my lifeline for a very long time. I can only thank you for having the courage to write what you did all those years ago.
Although I am far from controlling my squalor, I at least have a shot since you started the ball rolling. It began my understanding of myself. If you were in front of me I would probably cry, hug you for an uncomfortable amount of time and proclaim that you saved my life.
For me, and those of use who've found help because of you, I say thank you from the bottom of my heart. I carry a little piece of Kimmy with me always. If you ever get to feeling that you haven't done anything in this world, know that your words changed the world. I mean that quite literally. There was the squalor world before that thread and then there is now. None of us are here without you and frankly without this place, I don't have a chance.
Thank you dear Kimmy.
Love,
Lilith
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Post by priceoverride on Jan 21, 2009 1:16:16 GMT -5
Welcome Kimmy ! I feel I should jump for joy, hug you and dance around  Words cannot express how much your achievements gave me insight into my own problems, got me off my backside and motivated me to change my life. Thanks is just not enough. I am forever indebted. Much love Price |
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Post by Warrior Kimmy on Jan 21, 2009 2:06:38 GMT -5
 There is a HUUUUGE hug for you Lilith. It touched me so much to read how the squalor posts became a support for you, and that they still are after all these years. I can see you share the horror personally of having to hide the squalor and having to face it...and not knowing when to start, or when it is ever gonna end. It seems to take over our lives, doesn't it? You have no idea how frightened I was typing out that first message for help...I thought they would trace the public computer and come and lock me up!!!! My biggest fear was losing my animals. They were what kept me going and that fear was worse than anyone seeing the squalor. You certainly do have much hope and chance at beating the squalor, Lilith. If I did it, I tell ya anyone can. Always remember, never look at the whole mess, just say, ok, I will pick up ONE piece of paper today and walk out (after checking nobody is about to ask to be let in!!!!!) that door and put that one piece of paper in the trash. See how good that feels. All it takes is one little step and you would be amazed at what the world has to offer you. You just have to keep taking little steps and make yourself a few simple rules that are not too overbearing. Just whatever you are able to cope with. Love always, your mate, Kimmy xoxoxoxoxoox
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Post by Warrior Kimmy on Jan 21, 2009 2:15:08 GMT -5
 Hi Price!!!! I am now so glad I did have the guts to post my secret little problem and allow the world to view what NOBODY had ever seen!!!!!! You sound as though your life has taken a big turn for the better, just simply by conquering the mess!!!!! I am sure your post is a big inspiration for Lilith, too, who will get there given time. The hardest time is at the start when you look at that HUGE mess ya made and go OOOPS!!!!! Then you just get more and more depressed and then it grows around you according to your mental state. I am soooo very happy for you Price!!!!!!! Here is one big hug for you, too Oh yeah, and here is another for Lilith, You should be both very proud of yourselves for admitting the "little secret", and deciding that life would be better, if only I could open up the curtains..... he he he!!!  Lotsa love, Kimmy xoxooxooxoxooxox
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Post by notsomessyshell on Jan 21, 2009 3:05:54 GMT -5
There is not a big enough thank you for the gratitude I feel. I can remember finding the Squalor Survivors site and at once was filled with hope that I can get out of this mess. Reading all the pages, viewing all the pictures, reading the stories was just so fantastic for me. I was NOT ALONE. I was not some freak who just can't figure out how to keep a clean house. There is so much more to it. You have saved me. You have saved people on here I feel like are my close friends. I told myself when I conquered my kitchen if I ever had the chance I would thank you with all my heart. So hear you go  Thank you.
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Post by Mystic Pegasus on Jan 21, 2009 4:34:14 GMT -5
I am so thrilled to *meet* you Kimmy! Ages back, I came across your (and those cheering you on) original postings, and when I got to the part where PigPen was starting Squalor Survivors, I headed on over... of course, it had been going for years by then, but as I read of your struggles and progress, I felt like I was struggling along with you. It was your posts, and then continuing on with SS, that gave me the courage to face the fact I had to DO SOMETHING! If Kimmy could do it, I could!! I think the fact that you were a fellow Aussie gave me even more strength... and made me proud to share this heritage with someone so courageous, who went through so much, both in her life and in beating squalor. It gave me the courage to face some things about myself and my situation and try to make a start. And then, of course, I followed over hear to SOS when them Great Move occurred- and here I am! I still have a long way to go... luckily (or maybe not in some ways, as *out of sight out of mind* does apply at times- though it still closes in on me) my *treasures/junk* are mostly all packed in boxes, still there from our last move... about 400 of them, mostly unlabeled due to a very rushed move! In our shed, carport, veranda and relatives sheds. So, my house itself is not too bad- untidy and somewhat cluttery, but not as bad as it could be. But I know they are there, and see them every time I'm outside, and worry about vermin deciding to make their homes in them, or our landlord complaining... and they depress me and close in on me and make me feel hopeless at times. Especially when losses and other depressing happenings occur. But I am trying to get back on track, and make myself sort, just a box at a time... then eventually they will all/most be gone! I am also just about to start serious work at my parents house... which is in a total hoarded state- they both hoard... at least to get the outside of the house done, as they have had the Health Dept. visit and say they have a month to have it cleaned up. It's going to be a hard depressing job, but maybe this will be the kick they need to get serious about the state of their house too. It affects my mum's depression so badly, and is dangerous to her health. So... quite a lot of desqualoring coming up! Thank you for coming here and giving me a jolt of renewed enthusiasm... at a time when I needed it fairly badly. I hope you will post here regularly, with your enthusiasm, knowledge and support. Mystic Pegasus |
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Post by risenshine09 on Jan 21, 2009 6:52:40 GMT -5
A GREAT BIG 'Hello' and thanks to you Kimmy for having the guts to share your story and overcome the problem. I had been a member here for about 6 months but fell off the wagon and just decided to get back on yesterday. I was so thrilled this morning when I saw that you posted here. I want to get started again and offer support and encouragement to everyone. Thanks again and come back soon!!!
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Post by lorrainemondo on Jan 21, 2009 9:09:03 GMT -5
Kimmy!
YOU HAVE ROCK STAR STATUS ON THIS BOARD.
What a fabulous surprise to see your post this morning; I have often thought about you, as we all have.
I think to celebrate, I'm going to set my timer for 14 minutes and do some cleaning!
Lorraine
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Post by valor on Jan 21, 2009 11:56:23 GMT -5
Kimmy,
Thanks for being so Gutsy, and having such a Big Heart!
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Post by messymimi on Jan 21, 2009 12:33:44 GMT -5
Dear Kimmy,
If you are like most people, you really don't feel comfortable wearing a halo. Still, that is how we often feel about you.
When someone with another group I used to belong to posted a link to your pictures, expressing some things I will not share, I looked and saw, not a horror to revile, but a hurting person to help. That hurting person was me, because your pictures reflected the state of my mind/heart, even though my house wasn't there -- yet. Underscore the yet part, it was going to head that way if I didn't do something.
Your courage got the ball rolling. The fact that you are just a regular person who conquered and still fights this good fight is what inspires so many of us to continue.
What means even more to me is that you cleaned a place you knew was going to be demolished. Our house will have to be also someday, so I balk at bothering with anything. Still, as we own it and have to live here until we can afford to bulldoze it and sell the land, I need to bother. Remembering the work you put in under those circumstances gets the fire going under me.
Thank you for simply being yourself. When somebody invents that Star Trek style transporter they've been promising us (hey, it's after the year 2000, come on with the science fiction technology already! ), you are one of the first people I want to come hug. The rest are all on this site, too.
Meanwhile, will have to do.
messymimi
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Post by zinnia on Jan 21, 2009 16:33:17 GMT -5
Kimmy?! Really?! Wow. You are so brave and strong- it means a lot to hear from you.  |
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Post by autumn on Jan 21, 2009 16:44:00 GMT -5
I discovered the Squalor site several years ago and just found this one from that one. Kimmy! Wow.. What a great role model for us! I am thrilled you are still checking in and rooting for us!
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