I'm back! Dec 17, 2017 4:40:54 GMT -5 Little_Ninja, Morningstar, and 2 more like this Quote Select PostDeselect PostLink to PostBack to Top Post by mouse on Dec 17, 2017 4:40:54 GMT -5 Hi all!I was a really active member here about, oh, nine or ten years ago. Then I gradually got things a little in order, and life got busy, and I stopped posting.The squalor problem never entirely went away. It went into a sort of remission for a while. I moved, I started making a bit more money, and used that money to hire a cleaning service to come first twice, then four times a month. I still had a bit of clutter, but it never went past Level 1, which was perfectly acceptable as far as I was concerned.I bought a house, briefly backslid into squalor, but got it under control again before it got too bad, and then I got into a long-term relationship with someone who was really into cleaning, so it was easy to stay motivated with her around. Unfortunately, the cleaning turned out to be one of the few good things about the relationship (she became verbally and psychologically abusive), and it came to an end.I sold the house and moved to a new city for my job, and ended up back as a renter. I struggled with clutter again, and with keeping the cats' litter boxes regularly scooped, but it still felt as though things were (mostly) under control. Sure, the house would get messy, but it was nothing a few hours of elbow grease couldn't fix whenever the need arose.Then, after a conflict with my landlady (she threatened to evict me two weeks after insisting I sign a new lease and calling me her "best tenant"), I decided to move out. I gave her notice, and suddenly found myself in a time crunch to get my stuff packed and out.It's been ever since then that things have spiraled out of my control again. When I moved, I didn't do any kind of sorting or purging, just packed everything into boxes and went. I also have several pets: four cats and a dog, and the move stressed them out incredibly. My elderly dog, ever since I moved, has been having accidents in the house, often multiple times a day. I've managed to keep on top of those, but during that time I always imagined I could smell cat pee in the house. I couldn't figure it out. I'm not super meticulous about the litter boxes, but the cats have always used them without issue. Last week I finally figured out that at least one of the cats was stress-peeing under a couple of the boxes I'd left in the basement (still packed, alas), and it had soaked deeply into the carpet. The smell is no longer a mystery, but now I am looking at a serious problem of carpet and under-padding being potentially ruined (I've had professional carpet cleaners come in, but unfortunately whatever they did didn't work).I've been completely overwhelmed ever since I moved. I haven't unpacked half my stuff, every single room in my house is in disarray, and I've come to the conclusion that I a) have way too much stuff for one person, and b) need to downsize (both my stuff and my living space) in order for things to become manageable for me again. My office is moving in a couple of years, and when that happens I'd like to move house again, to somewhere much smaller, where I won't have to worry about keeping a huge space organized and clean, but just the idea of going through all my stuff fills me with dread.At a friend's suggestion, I also went very recently to my doctor for a referral to look into getting tested for ADHD. Having done a bit of research, it really does seem as though I have some pretty serious impairment in executive functioning (that's fodder for another post, but ADHD would explain so much about the problems I've had most of my life). Unfortunately I won't know for sure for quite some time. I did make an appointment with an ADHD coach to get the ball rolling no matter what the outcome of the assessment, but my first appointment isn't until the end of January, so I have a ways to go in the meantime.Anyway, as I was quietly despairing over things this weekend, I remembered how wonderful and supportive everyone on this board was, back in the day, and I figured that my best bet was to come back, see how the community was doing, and create some accountability for myself. There's no magic fix, but I'm hoping that the combination of (maybe) medication, therapy/coaching, and keeping myself accountable here will get me to where I need to go.tl;dr: I am back after being gone several years. My house is a disaster, and I want to downsize. I might have ADHD. The end.