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Post by SetMeFree on Sept 1, 2019 6:11:39 GMT -5
Sept 1 2019
TODAY
caffeine 
cat
Meds
create Sept spreadsheet
Bank accounts
pay bills
update spreadsheet
bag clothes
label bagged clothes
get emotional support
GIVE emotional support
empty DW
fill/run DW
clean K Sink
take vitamins
check/change amazon prime payment method
read about laundry and BB's
clear room for W/D
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Post by SetMeFree on Sept 4, 2019 6:49:21 GMT -5
Sept 4 2019 shower lotion caffeine cat Meds send request for maintenance Bank accounts pay bills update spreadsheet make 3 sisters stew get emotional support GIVE emotional support empty DW fill DW laundry away vac bedroom catbox take vitamins check/change amazon prime payment method clear room for W/D go through hamper label bags in bedroom |
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Post by SetMeFree on Sept 5, 2019 7:28:40 GMT -5
SEPT 5 2019
TODAY
wash up
brush teeeef
lotion
caffeine Nope - too late in the day
pill catface
feed/water catface 
Meds
Bank accounts
pay bills
update spreadsheet
make 3 sisters stew
get emotional support
give emotional support
empty DW
fill DW
vac bedroom
catbox
take vitamins
check/change amazon prime payment method
go through hamper
sort dirties
cancel Starz
SOON
finish bagging clothes in bedroom closet
finish bedroom closet
label bags in bedroom
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Post by SetMeFree on Sept 7, 2019 7:10:02 GMT -5
Ugh, I am struggling with my panic and depression today and I hate this. Woke up so many times during the night with a feeling of just sheer panic and had to talk myself back to feeling as "normal" as I could. This can't be good for me. I'm already on meds for both, but lately there has been so much to deal with that the panic has morphed into something bigger and I am SO TIRED OF IT. There has to be somewhere online to find support for this and I think today I need to spend some time trying to find it. My husband has to work at some community day thing in the small town where his new job is, and he's going to be gone all day. That's not helping. I find myself here alone and I feel like I can't dump this on him right now because he just started this job and he's under stress, too. I hope I can find some online resource today to get the help I need. I just want someone to tell me things are going to be ok. Sept 6 find support reserve hotel coffee feed/water cat pill cat pill me refill meds work on closets |
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Post by mynicehome on Sept 7, 2019 8:37:53 GMT -5
((((( SetMeFree))))) It's all going to be okay. It really is.  Just keep breathing, and hang in there. Things are nowhere near as bad as they seem to be to you right now. All is well. |
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Post by SetMeFree on Sept 8, 2019 9:16:56 GMT -5
((((( SetMeFree))))) It's all going to be okay. It really is. Just keep breathing, and hang in there. Things are nowhere near as bad as they seem to be to you right now. All is well. Thank you so much for posting this. It helped me to read this. 
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Post by SetMeFree on Sept 8, 2019 11:45:29 GMT -5
SEPT 8 2019 Round 2 of exterminator is Tues at 9:15am. Everything I put in totes and bags is still "tote-ed" and bagged. I ran out of time and energy when I did the marathon prep from Hades 2 weeks ago and there are still clothes in all 3 closets that did not get bagged. While I know I have today AND tomorrow to finish that, I am NOT waiting until tomorrow and then driving myself into the ground physically and emotionally to get it all done. I am going to work and take breaks as my back dictates and hopefully get it all done TODAY. In addition to the bagging of clothes, I need to pack for the hotel and vacuum. Today's goal is to get all the clothes bagged. The Universe already hit us with a punch below the belt today, as my husb went to run errands this morning and his car is now dead in the parking lot at Target. Glad he's there and not on a highway somewhere, BUT this was his only day off this week (I am GRATEFUL he now has a job) and we really do not need the added expense of a rental car when he JUST found a job after looking for 11 months. I don't know what's going on in the Big Scheme of Things, but there is supposed to be BALANCE and I sure would love it if we could go one week without a major Bad Thing. We have a lot of debt from him being unemployed for so long. This car thing is going to dig that hole deeper. I am grateful for the things we do have...but, boy, if the dark cloud could just maybe mosey on to another target for a while, that would be really nice. At this point I am not even asking for something GOOD to happen. I would just ask that the bad stuff stops and we can catch our breath and get our feet back on solid ground. TODAY coffee feed/water catface pill catface my meds make gar(bage)ment bags bag clothes in hall closet in 15-min increments until done: DONE round one round two round three round four bag clothes in cave in 15-min increments until done: |
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Post by SetMeFree on Sept 9, 2019 7:06:08 GMT -5
Sept 9 2019 Well, here we are the day before round 2 (and hopefully the FINAL round) of bedbug extermination. I'm kinda freaking, but in reality I am a million times more prepared than the day before round one 2 weeks ago. I'm going to start by doing a brain dump here and will prioritize/reorganize it later after the coffee gods have smiled on me. Update: Finished list and want to crawl back into bed or run away to join the circus.  TODAY coffee feed/water catface meds iron husb's work clothes gather all trash and bag it up for husb to take out tonight wash all dishes, coffee cup, etc. make sure husb has clothes for tomorrow and weds shower (end of day) cave closet finish bedroom closet bedroom hamper living room recon/reclaim gather sheets etc for bed for after treatment charge kindle vac cave vac bedroom vac liv room scoop box vac hall HUSB ATM for $ for hotel water for hotel trash bags tonight: trash out unplug move furniture as needed PACK FOR HOTEL cpap meds phone charger toothbrush/toothpaste/hairbrush/deod street clothes comfy clothes for hotel cat food water bowl cat litter litter box is in car trash bag |
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Post by SetMeFree on Sept 13, 2019 10:30:49 GMT -5
Sept 13 2019 TODAY coffee feed/water catface meds make list get emotional support give emotional support bank balances bills check all credit cards check credit karma call in RXs (mine) call in husb's Rx fridge purge meal plan for the week groc list order groc go through bedroom hamper |
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Post by SetMeFree on Sept 14, 2019 8:49:23 GMT -5
Sept 14 2019
TODAY
coffee
feed/water catface
meds
make list
get emotional support
give emotional support
take vitamins
bank balances
sort laundry
fridge purge
meal plan for the week
groc list
order groc
go through bedroom hamper
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Post by mynicehome on Sept 16, 2019 7:26:18 GMT -5
Keeping you in my thoughts ((((( SetMeFree))))). Hanging on to your health and sanity in the midst of bouts of depression, panic, anxiety, anger while outside events beyond your control are in full sway is no small feat!! Good for you for availing yourself of a warm and kind listening ear when you needed it. This has been a rough time that any one of us would have buckled under now and then. Give yourself full credit and recognize the heroic element in yourself. Stay strong...the end is in sight!  |
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Post by SetMeFree on Sept 16, 2019 14:00:45 GMT -5
Keeping you in my thoughts ((((( SetMeFree))))). Hanging on to your health and sanity in the midst of bouts of depression, panic, anxiety, anger while outside events beyond your control are in full sway is no small feat!! Good for you for availing yourself of a warm and kind listening ear when you needed it. This has been a rough time that any one of us would have buckled under now and then. Give yourself full credit and recognize the heroic element in yourself. Stay strong...the end is in sight! You don't know how badly I needed to read this today. THANK YOU for taking the time to post this for me. I am struggling terribly with my panic disorder and my depression (it's the weather, the change of the seasons, the full moon, and then all the other stuff that's going on) and reading this really helped me. THANK YOU!!
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Post by SetMeFree on Sept 16, 2019 15:00:11 GMT -5
OK, so today is prep the apartment for the washer and dryer to get installed in the walk-in closet of the master bedroom. This is going to require relocating a few towers of totes through the living room, and bedroom in order to create a path wide enough for the machines to get through to their destination.
Then I have so somehow relocate almost half of the bagged clothes that are hanging in that walk-in closet. I think they are going to end up stacked on top of the totes that are in that closet. This is like trying to do one of those old sliding puzzles we had when I was a kid...a simpler form of a Rubik's Cube...you have to move other things to create space to shift things, but there is just really no open space to work with.
Just ate some soup and I guess I'll just get started in the living room. Stuff that is too heavy will need the husband later tonight when he gets home from work.
I am so tired of living like this. It started on Aug 17th, when we saw the first bug, but it sure feels longer than that. The really sad thing is my husband had gotten our apartment to a state of it being almost completely clutter-free, with the exception of the closets. That's the worst part this. Having a decently-tidy apartment and then just undoing all of that because we had no other choice. The resentment I feel is strong. It's anger. And I shut down in a situation like this, while some people clean etc. when they are upset. Nope, I fluctuate between angry tears and wanting to just run away.
Asking the Universe to give me the peace in my mind that I need to be able to just DO THESE THINGS, as well as the physical strength.
Living Room
move everything away from wall
label the tote tower that needs to move
label wall where TT needs to move to (for husb)
clear area at wall for TT relocation
move TT (Husb)
vacuum (me tomorrow morning)
Hall
scoop litter box DONE
dustpan litter from carpet DONE
move box to cave DONE
vacuum hall (me tomorrow morning)
Bedroom
Pick up stuff from right side of bed DONE
vac rug right side of bed DONE
move bags from area at foot of bed DONE
Vac rug foot of bed DONE
Move bags from in front of closet to foot of bed DONE
Pick up any trash DONE
Vac rug left side of bed DONE
move chair to hall closet (Husb) DONE
slide dresser with TV over (Husb) DONE
vac open areas (me tomorrow morning)
Bedroom Closet DONE
slide totes from left side to right DONE
vac left side of closet DONE
move totes back DONE
stack totes from right side on top of totes on left side DONE
move all hanging bagged clothes from right side to left (any extra move to hall closet or stack on top of totes) DONE
vac right side of closet DONE
UPDATE: Everything is done except for the vacuuming that needs to be done in the morning.
So very grateful that my back held out long enough to finish.
I will be so glad when all of this is behind me. I desperately need a break, a respite from big stressors, and just some quiet days where I can feel like I can just rest, maybe read a book, do something artistic/creative.
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Post by SetMeFree on Sept 17, 2019 8:07:03 GMT -5
Sept 17 2019
TODAY
caffeine
meds
vac bedroom
vac hall
vac living room
feed/water cat
bank accounts
did car dealer put hold money back?
take vitamins
meal plan
groc list
groc shopping
price fall flowers
empty DW
fill/run DW
fridge purge
iron clothes
check on Amazon Prime renewal
HUSB
take out trash
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Post by SetMeFree on Sept 18, 2019 12:14:29 GMT -5
Sept 18 2019
TODAY
send maintenance request for washer
caffeine
feed/water catface
pill catface
take meds
quick clean of bathroom
banking/update spreadsheet
pay ext bill
fridge purge
line kitchen shelves with PT
gather trash in kitchen
empty DW
fill DW
run DW after supper
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