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Post by phoebepj on Oct 14, 2020 2:14:27 GMT -5
Hi everyone! I'm phoebepj and I suffer from depression and anxiety. Some days are better than others. Other times it is clearly reflected in my environment. I have been a member of this forum for a very long time and I want to return here for some accountability.
First an acknowledgement... 2020 is a very difficult year for many people, even those who are mentally stable and do not have struggles with squalor are admitting that this year has been inexplicably difficult.
As such, admittedly I slipped into bad habits and ignored the progress I made in maintaining my clean home. If it hadn't been for my monthly inspections and pest control, I would have been worse off. As it is, I was able to delay maintenance coming in during the worst months of covid-19... then, I fell. I tore my quadriceps tendon in my knee. I am now going through a long recovery process which unfortunately does not include surgery to fix it because the risks are way too great and the potential successes are slim. That furthered a depressive state which did not help my environment situation. So... I was forced to ask for help, and luckily friends volunteered to help especially at first when I was bed bound.
In the mean time I had personal family tragedies in the form of the deaths of both my grandmother in January and my grandfather in August. I am just now crawling out of a mental health hell hole that my mind has been trapped in since before Christmas last year.
I'm an open book and share my struggles with those who want to know. So. Hi! Again.
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Post by OnTheMend on Oct 14, 2020 2:23:05 GMT -5
Welcome! You have had a lot on your plate! I hope you find participating on the forum will help you, it certainly has helped me, and I find we share some similarities with our situations. I can warmly recommend starting a blog here, and choosing one or few accountability threads to participate in. And log in daily.
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Post by _Linda_ on Oct 14, 2020 7:40:35 GMT -5
Welcome back phoebepj. I'm sorry to hear about your losses, your fall, and your slipping back into old habits. Depression sucks and this year has just made it even worse for a lot of us. I've recently returned here also after letting my squalor get to it's absolute worst. You know you will get wonderful support and a full cheerleading squad.   |
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Post by larataylor on Oct 14, 2020 11:14:19 GMT -5
phoebepj - welcome back! Participating here keeps me going through all the ups and downs, and I think it lessens the grip of the depressive hell-hole. It's especially hard to get out of that with the pandemic isolation factor added in. I'm so sorry about your losses and your injury.
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Post by Arid on Oct 14, 2020 14:55:12 GMT -5
Hi, phoebepj!
I'm recovering from a month's-long relatively minor illness. It has served to increase my (already generous) empathy, sympathy, and compassion for those of us who suffer from on-going health issues that interfere with housekeeping (and *ALL* of life, actually!).
I'm glad to hear that you are "on the mend," and I encourage you to be "gentle" with yourself as you continue to recover.
Try to do ONE tiny thing each day: throw a piece of trash into a wastebasket; wash one dish; hang up an article of clothing--whatever. It *DOES* help, overall, even if it seems as if it couldn't.
Best wishes, Arid
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Post by joyinvirginia on Oct 15, 2020 5:18:36 GMT -5
Welcome back phoebepj! yes, it has been a horrendous year for many, for many different reasons. We all just have to take it one day at a time. Many hugs to you, and welcome back!
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Post by mylittlescholar on Oct 15, 2020 13:11:46 GMT -5
(((phoebepj))) ditto what everyone else said. welcome home.
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