daybyday
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Don't wait and take the chance of a serious illness beating you, clear it out now, time is precious
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Post by daybyday on Jan 27, 2021 5:53:07 GMT -5
I am the world's worst procrastinator. Here I am yet again, with another re-introduction. I need to make coming to this site my number one priority then perhaps I would get stuff done. I have a real hard time getting started, then once I start on things, it is not too bad in keeping at it awhile. It is just that start that I stall out on. And if you don't have to do it alone, it sure makes it a lot easier. I have just spent some of the most stressful time in my life over the last 1 1/2 months. I had to let my house go back to the lienholder. It was unlivable and has sat empty for the last 10 years due to damage that I could not afford to repair nor would I let anyone in to repair it. It was packed full, although not as bad as what I have seen on the hoarder show. I lived at other places, with family helping to care for them, then apartments and now a house rental. I didn't work on it as much as I should have. I got what I could out over the last month and a half, which didn't seem like much. I didn't know that I suddenly had to be out immediately or I would have worked on it more. The rodents had got inside, so you can just imagine what they did to it all. It was horrible to work in and very hard to drag myself there. Proper respiratory gear and gloves had to be worn. I never should of gone by to look at it in the process, seeing two huge dumpters brimming over the top sitting in your drive was heart wrenching. But that didn't matter because after asking repeatedly to the real estate person that was handling it and hiring the crew to empty it, if I could go over any amount of time to keep at it and see what I could save, they finally told me I could go over but it was all but emptied out really at that point. I got a few more things and thankfully the couple of people that were left working on it at that point had been so kind to look for items even more than the specific list I had told the real estate person to watch for and they had set a lot of things aside for me. My biggest concern was photos/video of my family. All I can do is pray that once I go through the storage unit full of boxes, that I find a lot of photos/videos that are in good shape.  My life is full of many regrets and some bad memories. While I try to keep them buried, they surface sometimes to haunt you. I think that they are satan's way of giving you a little hell on earth. But as my daughter said it is only satan's hell on earth if we let them be and let them consume us. She said that regrets are inevitable for anyone and just part of life and are what cause you to change and grow. She said that's why God offers His forgiveness, because we're bound to make mistakes. I like her explanation better and pray that I can get past losing those sentimental things, even if I don't specifically know what a lot of those things were anymore. It had been so long since I had seen them. Let go and let God as they say. It is a strange feeling, a mix of enormous sadness along with the weight lifted of not having to worry about the house anymore. I have not gone into as much detail as I could in order to not have to be concerned with privacy issues. But now I have to move forward, work on my house I live in and call home as it is needing help after moving some stuff from storage to here and I have way too many storage units that I need to condense. That is the project that I now need to work on in the coming year. This rental is small, which is probably a good thing for me. Gives me no choice but to keep my limited space from getting too full. I hope to work with you here and get inspiration. It is an ongoing battle that I know we can win. daybyday |
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Post by def6 on Jan 27, 2021 10:28:03 GMT -5
Good to see you daybyday You are not alone ! Best Wishes on all you want to get accomplished! |
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daybyday
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Don't wait and take the chance of a serious illness beating you, clear it out now, time is precious
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Post by daybyday on Jan 27, 2021 14:02:07 GMT -5
Thank you def6! I hope to make good changes in this, the fall of my life. It is way past time.
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Post by larataylor on Jan 28, 2021 1:02:28 GMT -5
Welcome back, daybyday! I hope you can find inspiration here to keep you going. Years ago I had two houses packed full and a storage unit, too. Day by day is the way to go. |
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daybyday
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Don't wait and take the chance of a serious illness beating you, clear it out now, time is precious
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Post by daybyday on Jan 30, 2021 3:02:01 GMT -5
Thank you larataylor! I have 5 storage units, filled with things from my 4 family members that have passed, along with my things. I need to cut them down to save money and there is no need to keep on paying for those places if I won't have room to ever have those things in my house. I only have two small bedrooms and 1000 sf place there that I'm renting so I have to be very selective on what I keep. I've had those storage units for years. I don't want my kids to have to deal with it all one day. I hope that as I go along that I can emotionally detach myself from "things" so much and that it will get easier to do with time and actually feel freeing. Right now, the clearing of my house that I owned and thinking about what all I've lost in there tears at me, so I hope that it gets easier to deal with those feelings over time. |
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Post by larataylor on Jan 30, 2021 7:25:55 GMT -5
daybyday - well, you're in the right place! My situation when I started here was somewhat similar. If there's no active acquiring going on, it's a huge, finite backlog of excess stuff. I always found it difficult to get myself to the storage unit, and to get stuff away from it. We ended up bringing most of it home to deal with ... but that was just one unit.
I think dealing with the feelings gets less hard with time and practice. I had a houseful of stuff from my in-laws, so I had to deal with the feelings of others, too. Time helped. But with storage units, time is money
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Post by NewLifeToday on Jan 30, 2021 9:10:46 GMT -5
daybyday I wish you success today and beauty. I am sorry for your loss.
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Post by joyinvirginia on Feb 1, 2021 21:49:38 GMT -5
Welcome back daybyday! If I pack up things in a box, it's always easier to let go when I look at them months later. So I hope you can release things in your storage unit easily now. Best wishes as you make those decisions.
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Post by creativechaos on Mar 6, 2021 1:54:55 GMT -5
dear daybyday; I just read your re-introduction and it broke my heart to read of your losses - and rang so familiar, everything you said. So many of us have empathy for your situration and have been there or are still there, striving to get free. At the same time, it was inspiring to read about your courage in the face of all this, and your resolve to keep moving forward and free yourself of your burdens and forgive yourself; i think the most essential part of our journey is self-forgiveness.
I'm so glad the workers who emptied your home had the compassion to look for things you might want or need. That takes some of the sting out of it. Your dd has a lot of wisdom and i'm glad she is in your corner too. It sounds like you have some good family support and support from your faith - and i love your board name and am now singing that song!
Welcome back, and I hope you stay and that we can help and encourage each other with our storage units. I hope you start a blog in the "members only" section, or maybe you have already, and I will be following along and cheering you on.
Thank you so much for your kind encouraging post to me; after all you've been through, to post that on my thread brought tears to my eyes. The people here are so good and kind and patient and accepting. Welcome home!
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daybyday
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Don't wait and take the chance of a serious illness beating you, clear it out now, time is precious
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Post by daybyday on Mar 13, 2021 10:50:36 GMT -5
Thank you so much to all that have posted here. I love this place and all the support from the wonderful ppl here. You "get it". You've been there or are there and working to improve, even if only one item at a time is progress. It does feel like home here. While I am sorry that it is empathy that you all have instead of sympathy, it is good to know that we are not alone and that there is a pot at the end of that rainbow. Ok, we may have to wash that pot first, but we're getting there none the less. That pot may just be filled with soap suds instead of gold coins, but that to me is a richer pot indeed that will lead to a life filled with good feelings and out with the bad. I think I will make a blog. It'll make me more accountable I think.   |
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