Hi from newbie Jul 13, 2008 12:45:53 GMT -5 Quote Select PostDeselect PostLink to PostBack to Top Post by mizzlora on Jul 13, 2008 12:45:53 GMT -5 Hi, guysI'm so much of a newbie, I can't even figure out how to post. I hope I did it right ("start new thread"). If I didn't, please clue me in.Also, while you're at it, I don't know how to "operate" the smileys and I don't know what the "tags" are. I could use some help there, as well.I can't stay on long....gotta clear off my dining room table HA HA!!My preferred method is dumping it all into paper boxes I bring home from work -- and then leafing through them when it can't be put off any longer to pull out my bills and anything else that I have to do something about and just dumping everything else into another paper box as I go and stowing them in the closet. And I "need" to clear off my dining room table before I can balance my checkbook, which is what I'm actually putting off because I am afraid to do it. I don't want to do it because I know I'm already in the hole for July and I haven't paid any bills except my rent and I don't get paid until the 31st and I don't have any credit cards and I've about run out of patient relatives. But this month was gonna be different, really! I was going to stick to my guns this time! And I really "meant" it when I said it. I am, as I ever am, frustrated, angry at myself, and ashamed of myself.I found this site by typing in "hoarding," (a term I came across in reading about ADD). I've been thinking I have ADD, taking ineffective medicine for ADD, and finding the "techniques" that are supposed to help me to live better with ADD simplistic and overwhelming at the same time.I had never thought "hoarding" applied to me, because I don't save things for fear I'll need them one day...quite the opposite, in fact. But I am compulsively cluttery and messy to the point that it makes it impossible for me to find anything I need and I'm way too embarrassed to let people into my house. Essentially everything on the site applied to me, so much so that I printed everything off and gave it to my therapist to read. The joy of finding this site and this forum is that, as others have written here, I thought I was the only one. That this is my unique problem and I had to find a way to fix it all by overwhelmed, anxious, depressed self. On the other hand, joining this forum this morning was really really REALLY hard to do. 'Fessing up to what "feels" like a shameful thing. I do want to change, -- I don't believe, at this exact moment, that I WILL change -- but it stands to reason that it's got to be easier to change my behavior with the support of other people who know what it's like, other than just friends and family who "wish they could help."So, hello, everyone!(You might already be getting the drift, but I'll warn you that someone once gave me a red,white, and blue button that said U.S. Olympic Talking Team!) By for now. I'm already feeling empowered to bypass cleaning off the dining room table and get to balancing that checkbook! But of course before I can do that I must first dress and go out and get get something to eat because it's almost noon and all I have in the fridge is about 4 ounces of orange juice and I'm diabetic. Man, do I need to be here.