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Post by grungygeorgie on Jun 28, 2010 10:20:22 GMT -5
As I slowly begin to become interested/motivated in decluttering
my house again,occasionally I will have a light bulb moment.I realize
all the stuff I drag back into my cave is for the life I think I am going
to have someday.Fancy napkins & china for the entertaining I will do.
Tools for the gardening I will do.Clothing in a small size for when I
am thin.Objects that fill my house to impress people,books that will
reveal how intelligent I must be,my goodness and so many of them!
I am living in my head,how heartbreaking.I need to live "in the now"
and not bring anything else in.I was born a messy person the daughter
and niece of 2 hoarders.I got sick and it got worse.My husband and
I are divorcing because of the condition of the house,among other
things (the blame falls squarely on me,according to him,of course!)
Do I want to spend the rest of my like thinking I am a piece of ****
just because I am a bad housekeeper?Of course not!I am a worth
while person who just happens to have bad brain chemistry.Thanks
to the miracle of medication that is now taken care of.My husband
doesn't love me anymore because I let the house & myself go?
Oh well,that can be remedied,but his cold uncaring heart can never
be fixed.Thank you ahead of time for anyone who responds,I
appreciate you all allowing me to vent.Now I think I will go kiss my
dog & then make my bed.Ta!G.
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Post by messymimi on Jun 28, 2010 11:01:05 GMT -5
Brava!
Live your life. Love. Enjoy. Get rid of whatever does not fit the life you want now.
You are beautiful, inside and out.
messymimi
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Post by Blackswan on Jun 28, 2010 11:18:27 GMT -5
Amazing insight!
Its probably pretty common for people to try to buy their dreams instead of actually living them.
i know i did! and just look at the weight loss industry! so many promises to buy but so few people that are wiiling to do the work to make the dream become reality.
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Post by cando on Jun 28, 2010 14:57:41 GMT -5
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Post by serenitynow on Jun 28, 2010 15:59:19 GMT -5
Good to see you back gg!
serenitynow
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Post by def6 on Jun 28, 2010 19:47:30 GMT -5
hey georgie, the past is gone and tomorrow is not promised -all we have is today. May you live everyday that you are given in the "now" Just remember; You are precious! regardless of any problems you may have(and we all have them) I'm sorry about your divorce-these things happen sometimes, I hope you find peace with everything.
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Post by MiSC on Jun 28, 2010 20:11:04 GMT -5
Georgie, I relate so much to collecting things for the life you will have.
Your post has kinda smacked me between the eyes. I need to go off and digest.
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Post by yearning4order on Jun 28, 2010 20:14:02 GMT -5
Georgie your post is eloquently written and spot on. Wow, thank you, I needed this today.
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Post by eagle on Jun 28, 2010 21:30:35 GMT -5
Glad to see you. I hope you do get rid of some of those things that are for 'someday' and keep the things that you enjoy 'now.' Living with an unloving husband can be very destructive to one's well-being. You can heal better, move on and grow much better without him. But if you do choose to stay in the marriage, we're still here for you.
BTW, your life began a long time ago. It may just feel like it's on hold right now, but you can get it back on track.
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Post by success19 on Jun 29, 2010 0:28:00 GMT -5
Use the fancy stuff - now - I know I am now in my fifties and there is no reason to wait for the special day - that time is now. Buy clothes you love now and wear them too! As for the hubby - now you can live for you - men sometimes just use their wives as an excuse to leave - and it is them that had the problem not us.
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Post by mouseanne on Jun 29, 2010 7:34:38 GMT -5
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Post by puppybox on Jun 29, 2010 9:32:24 GMT -5
for me, too, deciding to live in the now was essential to my happiness and letting go of stuff.
also, for using the good stuff now. keep at it! this way lies peace.
one thing It took forever to realize was that letting go of something like a desk, or maybe gardening stuff, was not the same as admitting I'd never need it in the future. trying to realise the universe is abundant and supplies will be available in the future too was hard. its not how I was raised. And its nice for the unused things to be used by someone now, or its a waste.
your husband sounds like he must have his own problems, half a couple can't be responsible for the whole of anything, I don't think. i hope you get things sorted out for the best, whether you split up or not.
And a big hug for you and you dog!
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