???I'm starting to have flashbacks of some of my life and it is getting scary. These are some of the things happening:
I REMEMBER:(Before Adoption:
1. Being in an orphanage with a huge number of beds that lined the walls.
2. Being served up grits and peaches in a line for breakfast.
3. Peeing on a teeter totter while up in the air(the other kid told)and getting a whipping with the back of a hairbrush.
4. I and my sister having been let out of an under ground cellar where the doors are kindof on a slant(like a tornado cellar). We were dressed in easter dresses hats, etc., and were led to a car with a man and lady who were going to adopt us.(Age 8)
5. Me walking up to a big chair(in court)and the guy said "No, she's to young to testify."
6. My sister on the big chair saying"yes, I want to be adopted",
AFTER THE ADOPTION:
1. Accidently spilling my hot chocolate and crying.
2. "Mom trying to flush me down the toilet feet first for wetting my pants. I kept screaming until I found out I couldn't "go" down. (Age 9)
3. Having to wash my underware and sheets out with lava soap.
4. Doing homework in my room
5. Never being able to do things the correct way it was supost to be(Age 16)
6. Being taken to the family doctor because I wasn't interested in boys(Age 16) Doctor asked me what I thought of boys and I said: "Their stupid!" The doc said there was nothing
wrong.
7. Started my period at age 16 and a half-started getting boobs. Mom told me the blood was mormal part of life. If I had sex with any boys I'd bleed to death.
8. Got the heck out of the house on January 4 my birthday when I turned 19.
OUT OF THE HOUSE:
1. Took a live in baby sitting job for people who had hired my now hubby.
2. The hired hand and I met a week later, and dated, but no sex until a month and a half later. When it finally felt right, I did it. Afterwards the hired hand had to literally "drag me" from a huddled position in his closet. After I blurted out I was bleeding to death- he explained why I was not.
3. I married the hired hand and my knight in shining armour on June 1, and have lived happily ever after since.
4. I kept seeing this black and white picture of me going down a slide at a park, with trees in the background. Standing beside the slide was a young guy dressed in blue jeans and and a white t-shirt with the sleeves rolled up. He had light hair-ONLY (and here's the clencher) his face was a complete blurred oval!!!
It was NOT until my son had his mental breakdown(wife left him) leaving him with the three boys, and only when the son brought home a girlfriend that he had met there DID THE PICTURE CHANGE.....This picture "in my mind and head" actually became colorized except for me, and the OVAL of the face!
5. My husband and I actually 'STAYED THE NIGHT IN OUR FIFTH WHEEL WHILE ON VACATION IN CALIFORNIA AT THE VERY TRAILER PARK THAT-----MY REAL DAD WAS MANAGING! Now I had never seen my real dad or mom....never remembered them either--"But he came to our door and said he was my real dad and I was the spitting image of his sister Dorothy!
After talking and sharing his pictures he left me with 5 pictures of my life...3 in a walker outside with my mom, one as a tiny baby with a bottle holding it with my feet on my back on the couch...one with me and my sisters(we were filthy)with the words "a couple of Okies" written on the back of this picture. (All these pictures were black and white!)
6. In later years after I got this computer, I put these pictures on a family tree site and it was THEN THAT I CONNECTED me in the oakie picture AS THE GIRL IN BLACK AND WHITE on the slide of the picture in my mind. This is now the ZINGER- In that actual picture of the oakies, I LOOK EXACTLY like that girl in my mind picture! I just haven't connected the face that's the oval yet...But I keep trying...one day it will click, and I MIGHT NOT LIKE THE FINDING OUT!
>:(That's the extent of my life as I remember it....I have really rambled-haven't I?