Terrified, but need to be here. Dec 22, 2017 3:42:05 GMT -5 via mobile creativechaos, iprocrastinate, and 4 more like this Quote Select PostDeselect PostLink to PostBack to Top Post by cj44 on Dec 22, 2017 3:42:05 GMT -5 Hi. This is huge for me. I've never admitted my problems to anyone other than people who knpw us extremely well and have chosen to turn a blind eye. We live in squalor. There I said it. It's out in the open-ish. And I'm terrified. I have several mental and physical issues, and lets just say our squalor is towards the outer end. I know it's bad, and I'm trying to hard to fight myself to make it change. We have kids. Won't go into detail about them. They are happy and healthy, and I always make sure they know the 'mess' isn't a good thing. I will always make sure they at least have the knowledge not to be like me. I'm just starving for support and advice. The relief (and sadness) I found when I realised I wasn't alone was crazy, but the nightmares of losing my kids is destroying me, and I know my state of living is too.So thankful for this forum.