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Post by grasshopper on Dec 20, 2008 13:25:25 GMT -5
I frequently want to cry w/ joy when I come to this place! You have an abundance of clever and true and kind and crazy and awesome. Thank-you! An antidote to my shame and isolation.
I have lurked at Squalor Survivors periodically for...how long?...years? I only recently got internet at home. Part of my procrastination problem. This site made registering easier for remedial techies like me. Last wk I 'chatted' for the first time ever! Very cool.
Thank-you for being so welcoming.
My home gets me down. My messy issues started getting the best of me in '02 I think. Always a problem, but prior to that I moved so frequently or had roommates.... I remember my college dorm room w/ a cringing embarressed feeling. But I had to move out at the end of the year, so problem solved.
I want my home to be a nice place I can be proud of, not this burden that stops me from living. Don't want to have people over, certainly not spontaneously. Don't go to the coast b/c I should clean(but I don't). Difficult to go on trips b/c need housesitter for the dogs(so much work to get the house to tolerable).
And then there's the yard! And structural maintenance. Cripes! Forget about it. I have a couple of horrifying incidents of city officials posting notices. Once had a warrant for them to come on my property. That was terrifying to me. Though it was for outside only; I felt invaded, powerless, vulnerable. Thankfully I was able to pull it together and they did not need to come. Emotional/psychic nightmare. Thinking back on that incident I realize it forced me to reach out to a friend for help. I have to be at the end of my rope to do that. She was kind and helpful. Didn't judge. Didn't scold. I am filled w/ gratitude for her right now and regreting a recent tiff we had. I will call her. Anyway....
I have no excuse. I'm young enough, healthy enough. I have enough time.
Procrastination is the beast on my back. It pervades my whole life. Hoarding is minor. OCD is not an issue. Procrastination/perfectionism/depression. These are my battles.
I wanted to write a real introduction finally. Open up. Let anyone who cares know where I'm at. I intend to use the site as a tool to gain more mastery over my space and my time. I'm not quite sure how yet, but I know you'll be patient w/ me.
For all who put work, energy, time into this place; Thank-you.
Grasshopper
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Post by messymimi on Dec 20, 2008 18:25:34 GMT -5
Welcome, Grasshopper  !
I'm glad you "de-lurked" and introduced yourself. As you have found, this is the place to come and be yourself and try to figure out what works for you.
Procrastination/perfectionism/depression sounds like my diagnosis. You have my sympathy on all 3, especially the last one. It is a major monster to deal with at times.
In chat is about the only way I get anything done, so come as often as you want.
It's good to have you here.
messymimi
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Post by notsomessyshell on Dec 21, 2008 0:09:52 GMT -5
Welcome Grasshopper! I too have had the horrid notice from the county regarding the outside of the house. Thankfully we were able to get it all under control and even better than they wanted. I was humiliated. Now because of this place I have made more progress than I have in years. Because of the support, understanding, and of being held accountable for things I am moving forward. I look forward to hearing more from you and to cheering you on to your successes.
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Post by mallery on Dec 21, 2008 0:39:07 GMT -5
Hi Grasshopper. Very pleased to meet you. Probably the only reason I haven't gotten notices is that I live in the country. I'm already starting to feel panic because my sister will be dropping by next week, not even coming inside, but I'm paranoid about the way the place looks. We have soo much snow that no one can really see the mess, but I'm getting all worked up anyway. I love this site!
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Post by DJ on Dec 21, 2008 7:25:17 GMT -5
hey, i'm glad i got to catch you in chat and i hope to see you again. this really is a great site full of wonderful people. glad to see you join the crew:D
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Post by heylady1 on Dec 21, 2008 10:00:53 GMT -5
Welcome Grasshopper!! I'm glad you found us and posted too! Like you I have procrastination problems, and a little bit of depression now and then. (No perfectionism here  ) But I can also add demand resistance to my list!! Issues with letting things go also but with the help of this site I am learning to overcome these problems, and you can too! I will second your comment about this place being filled with the nicest group of people I have ever had the pleasure to "meet" on the internet!!!  |
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Post by crazycatlady on Dec 21, 2008 13:14:53 GMT -5
Welcome, Grasshopper! Isn't chat great? It really is nice to find a group of people who understand that the mess is not us, and we are not our mess. I'm so glad that you are here! 
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Post by dayeanu on Dec 28, 2008 0:34:59 GMT -5
Welcome, welcome!
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