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Post by crazycatlady on Mar 17, 2009 21:14:03 GMT -5
Welcome, SacredSpace. Awesome on getting enough space clean to get the gas hooked up! And loved those words of wisdom from Eris, so lovely that CLioness reposted it to the main board.
Sometimes I get jumbled up inside when the house is all in a jumble. No idea of what to do, or where to start, and certainly no incentive to try. The idea of doing just a bit at a time has saved me.
Maybe I can't clean the whole kitchen, but if I see some debris on the kitchen floor, I can sweep it up within a few minutes, and feel good that I accomplished something. Little things add up, really.
Then there is the idea "protect your progress". Maybe before moving ahead further, you will spend your time keeping the clean areas clean.
Stick around, you are a part of the family now.
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Post by dayeanu on Mar 18, 2009 8:06:53 GMT -5
Welcome, welcome. You are home now. Most, if not all of us, have been, or are where you are now. It will get better. Keep reading, post when you can, go to chat, and watch things change!
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Post by yearning4order on Mar 25, 2009 11:02:51 GMT -5
Welcome--I'm very new here and learning, stumbling, learning. I personally have avoided trying to identify myself with the level system because I'm terrified of what I'll find. There is quite a bit in your description I did identify with. Someone else recommended the chat group which cleans for 15 minutes and chats for 15 minutes--I highly recommend this. I find it helps reduce the loneliness and the encouragement and suggestions of others like us, and those might be farther ahead in the journey have really helped. Using this I was able to get my tv out of my bedroom, into our living room, cleaning the living room along the way. I opened the living room curtain for the first time in 2 years. We actually put holiday window clings on them. I very much relate to not wanting repair people to come inside the house--last week my bath tub plugged up and for several days I showered standing on a plastic stool to stay out of the standing water. Then I realized that the "forward" parts of the house were clean (thank you all, this was because you chatted me to my way of getting the tv in the living room and cleaning the living room!), and I could simply close the bedroom doors and do a quick clean in the bathroom. Yesterday I let a repair person in the house for the first time in over 3 years. Now I have to keep moving--the dishwasher has been broken since December, and the dryer desperately needs a repair (works but horribly noisy). One odd thing: when I get something repaired in the house I actually feel better about myself, and more capable with other issues in the world. Weird how it all connects.
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Post by creativechaos on Mar 25, 2009 19:03:22 GMT -5
sacredspace, thanks for your very honest and moving introduction. it seems you know yourself well and have much wisdom and resourcefulness. WTG that you thought of your creative solution to take care of yourself and be warm! and i hope you will keep up defending the clean areas in the kitchen because it will give you a boost, and the inspiration to do a little more.
i think you are very wise to absorb and integrate information and your own epiphanies while you do a little every day. you have found your family!
congratulations for all the inner and outer work you have done to bring you to this point! that takes courage, and you give us courage too. looking forward to walking along in this journey with you.
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Post by outofchaos on Mar 26, 2009 16:10:39 GMT -5
I am hugely impressed with your speedy clean-up for the propane guy, I really lose hope when I need to do that kind of speedy cleaning, because even on my best days, I can only do so much before my hip starts yelling at me to sit down and rest.
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Post by Lucky Laura Loving Life on Mar 27, 2009 0:21:55 GMT -5
Sacredspace, Welcome to a wonderful place of support and love with people you will find you can really relate to. The intro from you was extremely touching. Keep coming 'round and keep your chin up.
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Post by dayeanu on Mar 27, 2009 12:32:05 GMT -5
Welcome, Sacredspace. Keep hanging out and reading and posting, even when you don't feel like doing anything. Stick around long enough, and it will begin to change you. AND we need you, too. Every single person who shares here has something of value that touches me, and I am grateful for them. One thing you can know for sure. You are among friends, soulmates, really, who understand. Glad you're here.
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Post by sacredspace on Mar 29, 2009 1:36:07 GMT -5
Such incredible support I continue to receive. Thank you all so much. Wonderful advice-Protecting the areas I've cleaned. That is making so much sense to me. I'm looking at my messy-ing behaviors like a scientist, how is it that I mess again? Seeing alot of avoidance-if I don't like a task, I especially avoid it, also, I work around problems rather than handling them. For example, I now understand how my counter space ends up with trash on it. My trash can is full in kitchen, Large trash bin outside is full and racoons make a mess if I just put it outside...so I found myself again putting garbage on the counters. Not okay-I love seeing and enjoying empty counterspace. Sooo-I borrowed a family 1 ton van and will be working on filling it, overall, been maintaining kitchen okay, but rest of house, overwhelming. Blessings to you all, Y
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Post by gettingsomewhere on Mar 29, 2009 21:20:00 GMT -5
good job on the van idea sacredspace. pleased you are maintaining kitchen. blessings to you too. x
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Post by 60isolderthanithot on Apr 7, 2009 11:58:53 GMT -5
HOORAY for sacredspace! That's a good start, far better than I did the first time I ever tiptoed into trying to deal with my problem. You're among friends, we understand. You are not alone.
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Post by gifted on Apr 8, 2009 22:43:57 GMT -5
I beg to differ with you. You said that you aren't taking care of yourself, but you needed to get heat into the house. But I would say that that IS taking care of yourself. You have dtarted to spend some of your time and energy on taking care of yourself. Take credit for it. Be proud of what you have done, and take care of the space you have made in your home. Enjoy what you have created. You are making room in your life for many new things!
How exciting!
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