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Post by Meme on Aug 2, 2009 1:45:12 GMT -5
Some one sent a pm to ask how I got to SooS and I thought maybe I could share the answer with everyone who wants to know.
I do know that I came to the squalor survivor site about a year plus a bit before papa hubby got sick and I found the original sight by googling the word- organize and I did join the same night and did post an intro- I had already began the journey a few years before so I did have handle on things but I was worried that the handle was going to fall off --
I was quite shy and nervous and not too open when I first came- but folks made me feel welcome and that it was ok to be me.
I did talk with papa hubby about some of the things here that did not involve personal information and he quite liked the idea of the group and the fact that I had friends who understood me.
Once papa got sick I pretty much disappeared but did I make it here to the new board during that time.
I often think how that year got me ready to be able to take care of an sick man and how I was able to turn our home into a safe hospice- it would have broke my heart if I would have to leave dear papa in the hospital because my house was too dirty for his cancer. And there was no warning so if I had not been ready there would been no time to get ready.
Having chemo means you must be in a healthy environment and I remember how scared I felt the first time the nurse came to see how we could accommodate papa hubby-s needs-
I wanted to keep him safe and healthy so I requested that they come and access the house and the inspection passed with flying colors and the all we needed to do was get a hand rail for papa in the tub-( and she had home care put one in for us).
she loved the way that I set up the house for him and shared the whole home with him rather than sticking him in our bedroom away from life.
After papa died I did sink into a squalor mind set even though I kept the house clean-- I think I was just trying to stay busy so as not to think and I kept hoping it was a dream and that he would come home again.
I tell you this because it has been 2 years since I have done anything with just Meme on her mind- now I have to take care of my body and mind and spirit to honor me and my life with papa hubby-
I blog on a public blog here--called ''Before and After''' and it is not structured yet- simply my thoughts sometimes of the past and some times for now- and some times I get muddled.
I do want to do a more structured blog in devotion form later and written for woman-( sorry guys, but you can read it too ).
I had a rough week last week and wanted to cut and run from everything but thankfully folks wrote me on the blog and through PMs and gave me hope to stay and follow my heart. I struggle every day to keep on, keeping on.
thanks for being here for me - huggles
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Post by yearning4order on Aug 2, 2009 1:52:59 GMT -5
Oh Meme, you are such a treasure. I'm glad you stayed.
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Post by serenitynow on Aug 2, 2009 6:49:03 GMT -5
I'm sorry you had a rough week. In spite of it, you can write such a beautiful tribute.
Here's to our Meme!!! (raising my coke can)
serenitynow
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Post by skatters on Aug 2, 2009 13:05:53 GMT -5
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Post by Pig in the City on Aug 2, 2009 14:58:30 GMT -5
You are very much appreciated.  |
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Post by messymimi on Aug 2, 2009 20:47:58 GMT -5
messymimi
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