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Post by hopehope on Sept 7, 2008 0:22:41 GMT -5
I have this stuff to do. It's my responsibility. My neglect/avoidance/whatever created the problem. God willing, I'll face it and deal with it and not have authorities do it TO me.
But I know it's disgusting and upsetting work. Hard to get myself to knuckle in and do it. ugh. how?
hopehope
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Post by mellowyellow on Sept 7, 2008 9:38:56 GMT -5
THERE you are! I have been looking all over for you... I keep popping into chat hoping that you will be on, but no luck. I was wondering how you are doing, Hope... and what is happening regarding the inspection/cleanup process. I will be around for several hours, and then have a funeral visiting for a dear friend of mine. If you want some conversation or some ideas or just a good ear, tell me and we'll meet in Chat.
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Post by pegasus48 on Sept 7, 2008 18:49:36 GMT -5
You can do it hopehope! You have come so far. You have done so much. You can keep going!! I know part of you doesn't want to, but part of you does. Say a prayer and listen to the part that does want to keep going.
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Post by hopehope on Sept 8, 2008 2:47:56 GMT -5
thanks, guys
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Post by heylady1 on Sept 8, 2008 7:27:26 GMT -5
Hey HopeHope!!! How are things today? How are you today? Yes it can be so hard to do the yuckky stuff. I have no marvelous words of advice.....IMO this is just something you have to plow through. I can only hope that at this point you have gone through the worst of it and it's all downhill from now on!! Let us know how you are HopeHope, we worry about you!!
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Post by brainjam on Sept 8, 2008 18:28:15 GMT -5
A bit at a time in threes is the way for me! I believe in you hopehope. I believe in all of us. This board has made a visible difference in my home and my life.
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Post by hopehope on Sept 8, 2008 20:51:03 GMT -5
you guys have me laughing and crying. I couldn't write yesterday -- limited equipment. mellow -- I kept popping into chat myself -- but, except once, never found anyone -- pegasus. i have to read this over and over. I wish I could print it. and my lovely new friend pickles -- that got me! everybody -- my house is a horrible horrible mess. I have done a whole lot and it's unbearable to look at for ordinary people. and I have these lawyer's letters as of saturday and I think this will take a year -- which is reasonable -- if no one's breathing down your neck. I got into the Kitchen of Doom the other night -- first time -- i didn't actually stand in it -- just reached in and filled bags -- lots of bags. It's not as bad as I feared. No obvious smell -- NOT THAT BIG A ROOM. So maybe doable. if I don't keep scattering my fire. What is all this stuff? How do people live with a couple pairs of underwear in the drawer, a pot, a plate, and a dress? and toothbrush. How did I get here? ok, I'm not ready to go back to that. But -- my wish my dream my vision -- is that I open the door to my place and it's as clear and clean as it is outdoors. and hey, and brain jam and mysmom. you guys are my touchstone, my sanity. thank you all. I wish i could crawl into a lap and cry and cry, and then get down to work. hopehope
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Post by moggyfan on Sept 8, 2008 21:04:43 GMT -5
Hi hopehope,
You have been steadily chipping away for weeks; I hope that the powers-that-be (whoever they are) will see that even though there is still a ways to go, that you are making consistent progress.
I hope that your lawyer can serve as a good go-between between you & the landlord. You need somebody on your side! (I mean "in real life"--we are of course all on your side here in cyberspace!)
How big is your apartment? I don't think I remember knowing that. Is it a one-bedroom?
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Post by hopehope on Sept 8, 2008 21:29:12 GMT -5
no, mog, it's a studio -- a little one with corners and awkward passages -- -- piled high. sigh. better than it was -- but they're in no mood to cut me any breaks, they'd love to get me out... oh, my. hh
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Post by moggyfan on Sept 8, 2008 21:44:02 GMT -5
:-(
Well, if the LL is not to be persuaded by your efforts, then I hope the lawyer can be shark-like on your behalf!
I know in SF it's verrrrrrrrry hard to evict a tenant who doesn't want to go; I hope that's the case in NYC too!
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Post by hopehope on Sept 8, 2008 21:51:55 GMT -5
from your mouth to God's ears. (your finger...?)
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Post by artsygal on Sept 8, 2008 22:00:11 GMT -5
Oh hopehope I know how hard it is to plough through, last night on my cleaning marathon, i started out bawling on and off for the first few hours, it was gross and disgusting too. But you HAVE done so much, and even if you don't feel like it right now, trust what everyone is saying. My anxiety didn't go away until the landlord came back, right before that I was crying again. I think at that point i could of had the cleanest house ever and I'd still think it wasn't enough. I'm thinking about you!. I work from home, on my computer, so if you ever need chat support, I can be on it, while I work. best, artsy -oh, the smiles are on this board, if you look to the immediate left from where you type a new message, there is another area of more smilies, just click on view all smilies!!
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Post by hopehope on Sept 8, 2008 22:03:43 GMT -5
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Post by lettinggo on Sept 9, 2008 2:49:49 GMT -5
everybody -- my house is a horrible horrible mess. I have done a whole lot and it's unbearable to look at for ordinary people. and I have these lawyer's letters as of saturday and I think this will take a year -- which is reasonable -- if no one's breathing down your neck. Been there Yeah, I just had to sit at the edge of my kitchen, and pull things from the floor into trash bags.
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Post by pegasus48 on Sept 9, 2008 20:22:21 GMT -5
Hopehope, just think, you are actually started on the Kitchen of Doom, something that would have seemed impossible not that long ago! You are doing a great job. Just keep tossing that trash and you will amaze yourself!! By the way, I absolutely loved something you said, What is all this stuff? How do people live with a couple pairs of underwear in the drawer, a pot, a plate, and a dress? and toothbrush. How did I get here? I know that feeling! (Like, how did this happen?) , I never cease to wonder at some of the things I unearth as I declutter. And I am sure I will run across more surprises as I go. Here are some hugs for you.
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