Blackswan
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Oct 21, 2008 10:04:01 GMT -5
Post by Blackswan on Oct 21, 2008 10:04:01 GMT -5
Oh, you guys! When I walked through my house right now, I had a spontaneous thought out of nowhere: "This is my home". The morning sunlight was coming in through the windows, and I was looking at all of the clutter free rooms, it was so beautiful! I did glance out at my porch and see all of the clutter waiting for its salvation army pick up today, but then I quickly went back to looking around inside.
I moved here in July, as a way to get out of my one bedroom clutter filled shack. I threw away about 1/3 of my stuff at the other house, but when I got here I realized I had way too much stuff still. My rent had nearly doubled, from $715 to $1350, but when I decided to move here, it was worth it because it was a better neighborhood, and it was a TWO BEDROOM, and my son never had his own room before.
The second bedroom was filled with all of our moving clutter from July until this weekend. My son had slept in there a few times, but never really enjoyed it because it was nasty in there. I was paying double for us to keep sharing one room. AND my bedroom connects to that room, so to get through to the rest of the house, we had to walk through it, sideways. Everyday we went through that.
Right now, it is a bedroom, and my son is sleeping in his bed. The toys he loves are on the shelves, along with a lot of empty spaces. I found an entire window in there! It was behind a shelf full of crap. Now it is letting the light in, and will let a cool breeze flow through the entire house on hot days. I found our DVD player and VCR in a box, and set it up for him. I filled his closet with clean clothes, and took all the dirty ones off of the floor. I got the kitchen moving boxes out of there. The bookshelf had about 150 extra books on it, and it was a cluttered disgusting eyesore. Now those books are in boxes on the porch waiting to be taken away by the handsome, muscled salvation army saviour (hey a girl can dream, right?) There are still small jobs to work on throughout the house, but they are contained and can now be done as needed, perhaps one declutter session every weekend will do. I need to eliminate shoes, but they are all hanging on a shoe rack. I have too many bedsheets, but they are all stacked neatly in a laundry basket. We have too many clothes, but they are all either hanging up or in a laundry basket.
There is nothing disgusting, nothing I am afraid to touch. Nothing other people would look at that would make them want to take my son away. There is nothing squalorous, and it is wonderful!
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Oct 21, 2008 10:06:27 GMT -5
Post by nmf on Oct 21, 2008 10:06:27 GMT -5
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Oct 21, 2008 10:32:05 GMT -5
Post by AnnieOkie on Oct 21, 2008 10:32:05 GMT -5
I'm so happy for you!!!! I hope that pickup guy IS handsome and muscled and has a nice smile for you!! You deserve it!
(I was daydreaming earlier today about just that moment when I can look at my own home and call it just that...a "home". Thank you for inspiring me to keep working and to get it done!!)
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Oct 22, 2008 20:15:31 GMT -5
Post by morningglory on Oct 22, 2008 20:15:31 GMT -5
I feel great peace just READING about your lovely home! The idea of nothing disgusting, nothing you wouldn't want to touch, is so relaxing! And the visuals of the light and breeze coming through the window, the gift of your precious son with his own room full of valued possessions, able to enjoy the DVD player and live a NORMAL life...it's just wonderful. And YOU did it! Yay for you, a thousand times! You are an inspiration!
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Oct 22, 2008 20:17:22 GMT -5
Post by mouse on Oct 22, 2008 20:17:22 GMT -5
That's really great, blackswan. I can practically *feel* how relaxed and happy you are by your words in this post. Keep up the great work, and congrats on your new home! ~Mouse
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Oct 22, 2008 21:12:20 GMT -5
Post by notsomessyshell on Oct 22, 2008 21:12:20 GMT -5
That sounds so wonderful. I aspire to your level. I want my son to sleep in a clutterfree room. I want to be able to walk through my house without turning sideways, or wondering what I just stepped on, praying it was never alive! You are an inspiration to us all.
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Oct 22, 2008 23:16:32 GMT -5
Post by hypatia on Oct 22, 2008 23:16:32 GMT -5
That sounds so wonderful! I can't wait to be there myself. Enjoy your peaceful home!
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Blackswan
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Oct 23, 2008 0:09:36 GMT -5
Post by Blackswan on Oct 23, 2008 0:09:36 GMT -5
And the best part is, now that I am at this level, I can just maintain! No more stress, no more putting things off! I had never thought seriously about maintaining before, and this time now that I have thought things through, I really think I can keep it clean. The weird part was, when I came home from work today, I had no cleaning to stress out about, and I felt strangely empty, like I had nothing to do! I guess because I wasn't spending the time stressing about the house, or thinking, well, I really SHOULD clean, and tearing myself up over it. It was just clean! Just now my son and I did a walk through of our house for maintainence. We ate dinner out with family, so the only thing we had to do was move two toys, some laundry, two pairs of shoes, a pen, and a pencil. And that was it! And it is done! Oh yeah, and we had to throw away a soda bottle. I hope I never have to do two, three, four day cleaning ever again. Thanks for all of your kind words, they really will help me to keep things up the way they should be.
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Blackswan
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Oct 23, 2008 0:11:45 GMT -5
Post by Blackswan on Oct 23, 2008 0:11:45 GMT -5
And, I forgot to mention this. I cannot believe that I am squalor free so soon. I thought it would take so much longer, but it was wonderful to just put in those work hours and then get to my goal, and live in the kind of house I have been wanting since I had my son. Also, I guess I never really felt like I would ever live in a house that was clean, and I had nothing to be afraid of in it. It had become a way of life, being afraid of my house, and I had lost hope that I could ever just live in a house without walking on eggshells and having constant anxiety about some bug jumping out at me, or sticking my hand into something nasty, or smelling nasty rotting food smells, I never thought I would be able ro relax as an adult in my own home. Growing up, my mother took care of all nasty items, or my father, and I never had to deal with things like that. I feel like I have relaxed for the first time since I was a child living at home. Does that make any sense at all?I had acquired the house, but I was completely ruining the atmosphere in it. Now I feel complete and like a good mommy.
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