Ashamed and Guilty Dec 11, 2022 10:07:09 GMT -5 via mobile creativechaos and hedy like this Quote Select PostDeselect PostLink to PostBack to Top Post by anothersun on Dec 11, 2022 10:07:09 GMT -5 Hello I found this site yesterday evening after hitting rock bottom. I'm chronically depressed, lack motivation and often feel like the world hates me whenever something good happens as its followed by something bad and stressful such as this event. Yesterday morning while I was trying to sleep my apartment management called me to tell me my neighbors were getting bugs through the walls. To make matters worse those same neighbors came and banged and pounded on my door scaring me and causing me great anxiety. Later the police came by to do a wellness check because my neighbors called saying they hadn't seen me in awhile and were getting maggots through the wall. I know my apartment is dirty and gross and doesn't smell good, I know I have roaches and gnats. I just don't know where or how to start, when I've reached out for help I've been given a sure I'll send resources and yet I've never gotten them. I know this is my fault.