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Post by eatingbonbons on Jul 14, 2008 18:20:12 GMT -5
I've got some serious issues going on in my life. Typically I would be depressed in this situation. But this time I am angry. Visibly, obviously angry. None of this turned inward crap like I usually do. 'Just mad at all the parties involved.
Today I was pacing, pacing, pacing, totally unsure what to do with myself feeling like this. I am very uncomfortable with outward anger and typically do whatever I can to avoid conflict.
Anyway, it finally occurred to me that anger energy is also really great cleaning energy. So I went into the kitchen and tackled one section of the counter. I was still more careful than I really should have been, but a lot of things finally hit the trash.
I went through this old beat-up, open-top, cat-hair-collecting Rolodex that has phone numbers of everybody we ever met and took out the good numbers which I'm adding to the current Rolodex that my daughter & I actually use. I typed up a list for "someday, ya never know" numbers which don't need a prominent place on the kitchen counter and can exist happily in a Word document. It will keep my husband from worrying. Now I have to decide if I should make him a new Rolodex or encourage him to use the existing one. He hates change.
There was another container that turned out to be a recipe file. What? ? 'Seems that it belonged to my husband's sister who considered herself a gourmet cook. Since I consider myself a microwave cook, those recipes aren't going to be getting a lot of use here. And that has already been evidenced by the gunky layer of dust on the top of the box. I cannot begin to imagine how that little box ended up on my kitchen counter. I darn sure didn't put it there. Anyway, that little box is now on a shelf in the garage. I know that's not tremendous progress, but at least it won't be collecting cat hair now.
There was some food that my daughter had bought a while back (months & months) that my husband for some reason thought should not be in the pantry mixed up with the regular food, so it's been taking up space on the counter while (you know the drill) collecting cat hair!
The only thing on the countertop now is the telephone. It's a terribly inconvenient spot, but that's where the outlet is. No matter where you happen to be in the house, it's difficult to get to the phone.
But, you know what? I'm still mad!!!
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Post by Carrie on Jul 14, 2008 18:28:00 GMT -5
Hi Eatingbonbons! Well, congrats on using your negative energy towards a positive goal! You did a fantastic job! Pat yourself on the back for that one! (I might have chosen to have an ice cream sandwich! :
Would it help to share what you're angry about? Maybe call a friend or relative and vent on the phone? Even post it here, if it's something you'd feel comfortable about. Typing it out (even if you don't want to post, you could save it in a file) can be very therapeutic. I mean, doing more cleaning would be great too, but if you're really angry you might need to find another way to cope.
Let us know how you do.Carrie
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Post by glowworm on Jul 14, 2008 20:45:41 GMT -5
Ah, anger cleaning. I do it, too. May as well get something good out of that negative energy, right? Either way, I do sincerely hope that things turn around for you soon.  |
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Post by packusratus on Jul 14, 2008 20:52:36 GMT -5
I think it's awesome that you channeled that anger into work and got stuff done. Doesn't it feel great? I'd say one challenge, for me, is perfectionism and maybe that's one for you too. There is always going to be something, so having the phone on the counter is that something. It's there because it needs to be near the outlet and you can find it easily there. Good job switching that energy to something productive. Maybe I should try to get angry more often  |
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Post by crazycatlady on Jul 17, 2008 22:31:22 GMT -5
In my first marriage we fought A LOT. And I would "recover" by furiously cleaning. Sometimes, looking back, I think that he pushed my buttons on purpose!
Now I am happily married, and we really don't fight, and we ended up living in squalor!   !
Good job in redirecting that anger into useful activity! W00t w00t for BonBons!
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Post by eatingbonbons on Jul 18, 2008 18:28:56 GMT -5
Yesterday my daughter asked me if the cleaning streak is over.  I'm not so angry now and I've been doing other things. I was very upset with my mother and I don't think I've ever been that mad about anything in my life. But I've made a good start and I'm not going to let it go to waste. Thank you all so much for the support. I was in bad shape for a while.
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