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Post by roseoftexas on Aug 25, 2008 15:54:18 GMT -5
Wait. I've never been raped. i am beign raped. i cant make it stop. my family. in my space. movign my stuff.
I want toscream. Nothing comes out. can'at make it stop'
stop. can't make them stop
i feel disturbed. exposed. violated. touched. peal away the onion, take off my clothes exposed. i feel sickedn violated
God. make ti stopp. make ti stopp. plerase.nasty. ick.
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Post by roseoftexas on Aug 25, 2008 15:58:51 GMT -5
they left. they stop. they stop raping me.
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Post by roseoftexas on Aug 25, 2008 16:01:04 GMT -5
i feel sick. got ot move my stuff. got to move. nowhere to go. they don't want me here no more. i have no where to go. why didn't they warn me? i feel violated in a bad way.
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Post by roseoftexas on Aug 25, 2008 16:06:40 GMT -5
i feel dirty.dirty dirty dirty dirty. they take stuff and go. they ask me what to do with i tell them throw away. my stuff
MY STUFF thrwo it wawy I toll them. throw it away i think they throwing my stuff away. they drive waya. with some of my stuff
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Post by messymimi on Aug 25, 2008 16:12:37 GMT -5
If they are taking anything from you without permission, or will not leave you alone, they are spiritually violating your boundaries, and it is wrong. Can you call the police and have them removed from your property? Please try if you can. messymimi
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Post by roseoftexas on Aug 25, 2008 16:20:35 GMT -5
not my property. their property. I live in my parents' extra house. they give me no warning. no warning. they give me no warning. i go. i understand. fine. they don't want me here. i go. i have nowhere to go. i have nowhere to go. where to take my stuff and go?
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Post by zinnia on Aug 25, 2008 16:23:27 GMT -5
If someone has commited a crime against you, call the police. If you are not sure about what is going on, you can call: 1-800-273-TALK and explain things. That is a toll free number that will connect you with the crisis center nearest you. They will listen and can help you decide what to do next. Hugs to you at this difficult time. Edited to add info: 1-800-273-TALK The National Suicide Prevention Hotline www.suicidepreventionlifeline.org
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Post by roseoftexas on Aug 25, 2008 16:27:08 GMT -5
thank you zinnia. i ok. mentally not ok. physically ok. they don't touch me, they touch, take my stuff.
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Post by zinnia on Aug 25, 2008 16:31:22 GMT -5
Sometimes it helps to talk to a professional. (And most of those organization titles have already been changed to "crisis hotline" because they help people with all kinds of trouble, not just suicide/depression. Don't let the name of the organization bother you. )
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Post by houseworkhater on Aug 25, 2008 16:49:37 GMT -5
rose, please post again. these posts are totally out of character for you, and i for one and very concerned about your state of mind. please let us know what is happening. praying for you...
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Post by roseoftexas on Aug 25, 2008 17:04:52 GMT -5
rose, please post again. these posts are totally out of character for you, and i for one and very concerned about your state of mind. please let us know what is happening. praying for you... Sitting here trying to figure out what to do. Crying. Trying to figure out what they want. My first thought is throw away everything that can be replaced. I am just trying to figure out where I could go. I have 2 cats and me and my car. I have a car payment. Just trying to figure out what to do. I feel extremely disturbed. I'm here. My self is here. What they came and did just made me feel violated. Obviously. Upset. Thank you for prayer. I feel so disturbed. I have a job. I work from home. I can only work in certain states in the U.S. I don't make a lot of money, but it pays for my car and my cats. Just trying to figure out what to do.
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Post by brainjam on Aug 25, 2008 17:07:10 GMT -5
Rose, I am worried about you even though I don't know you too well at all. Brain Jam
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Post by houseworkhater on Aug 25, 2008 17:08:56 GMT -5
thank God you posted, and your writing seems much more coherent.
i am truly concerned. what exactly is happening? who is going through your things? they have been pressuring you to get rid of things and now they are getting rid of them?
i don't want to make things worse, but can i (we) help???
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Post by gottaproblem on Aug 25, 2008 17:09:53 GMT -5
I am also praying for you. Try to breathe and relax a minute. Do not leave without a solid plan. You and your cats need to be safe. I am a person who tends to flee, so I understand that feeling. Do you have a friend that you could contact?
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Post by roseoftexas on Aug 25, 2008 17:25:37 GMT -5
i am truly concerned. what exactly is happening?
I was sleeping. I worked this morning. I finished my shift and was sleeping. My mom called on my cell phone and said she and my dad are outside moving things, that my uncle is coming on Thursday.
who is going through your things?
My mom and my dad.
they have been pressuring you to get rid of things and now they are getting rid of them?
They haven't been saying anything. They have been letting me live here, in their extra house. They paid the bills on it empty. They were letting me live here.
i don't want to make things worse, but can i (we) help???
That is why I posted. I came here and posted while they were still here. I couldn't make them stop moving my things. All my things have been in the garage; they wanted to move all my stuff out of the garage into 2 storage buildings in the back yard. Wanted my stuff out of the garage and house and in the buildings. Wanted me to help them. They just came out of nowhere, with no warning.
Then they left. My dad tried to come talk to me and I got angry. I am not physically hurt. He did not touch me. My mom did not touch me. They left.
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